As one day passes...

I sigh with relief every moment that I can cross a hatch mark through another day on my calendar. I made it through another 24 hours and I'm still breathing. Sometimes it feels like the world is a big roller coaster and I didn't strap myself in tight enough before we took off. Now I'm just hanging on as tight as I can and closing my eyes while I pray that it will all be over soon. I wish life did not have to feel this way for me so often. But the truth is, it doesn't. According to the book my mom has recently bought me entitled "Ten Days to Self Esteem", you can change the way you feel simply (or not so simply) by changing the way you think. This is a concept I am still trying to grasp and I have far from mastered it. In fact, I would say I have barely begun to understand it. It does make sense to me but it is a difficult thing to try and rewire your thought process after operating in one way for so long.