So lately I have been having this issue about completing things. I have been laying in bed for the majority of my day but sleep often escapes me due to the thoughts swimming about in my head. I have so many ideas and I get so inspired that it creates a restlessness that I can't seem to shake. I lay there for a few minutes and gaze up at the ceiling or whatever aspect of my environment that grabs my eyes attention and I wait. I wait until my mind tells my body to get up and try doing something. It seems to be getting harder and harder for my mind to get this message across to my body. I believe this is happening because I often am unable to complete even the smallest of tasks that I assign myself which causes an immense build up of overwhelming frustration that says to me "why bother? you should have never gotten out of bed today, Hannah. You can't even decide what to eat or concentrate long enough to draw" . Drawing used to be one of my favorite hobbies but it seems I am
no longer experiencing the same satisfaction of doing it because I cannot complete a single picture. The only solution I have found to my racing thoughts an lack of concentration comes to me in the form of a little 70 mg pill called Vyvanse. It is used to treat ADD/ADHD and it does wonders for my concentration and when I take it I am extremely productive....for about 2 hours . As soon as it wears off my motivation gets flushed down the toilet. Does anyone else experience this?
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